my cousin gave birth today. 7:20am local time. i’m not sure how to feel. she’s a teen single mother. i wish them all the best in the world, but i can’t help but feel cynical and smug. in cases like these, i feel that i should thank my mom for fostering my many issues and hangups with relationships/sexuality that this it something i will never personally deal with.

erin and i went to pluto today! it happened to be where der bismarckturm is. it was a weird hike through the german woods to get there. complete with jokes about being lost and eaten. i don’t know what we did, but we walked up every imaginable hill (and probably some imaginary ones too). check out my bilder for the complete story- sort of. we saw a neat orange slug too. it’s up there.

hmm. what now. i’m starting to think about my life. i hate doing this. very little good will come of it. should i try to graduate next semester? or in the spring? what will i do afterwards? will i get a job? will it matter? should i teach highschool? should i still think about gradschool? lame things like this put me off my ritter sport. the only thing that sounds really appealing right now is the idea of sleeping in a big comfy bed in a decent sized apartment and waking up to joe’s homemade waffels with raspberries on top. fucking boys, they mess up a girl’s priorities!

just kidding. boys like joe are rad, and i’m happy i have him. (how’s that? in your face! here’s to sappy sentimentality!!!!!)

when i was a little kid, i loved watching michael palin’s travel shows. i would have to hide outside in my dad’s clubhouse on friday nights watching them on a small tv with no reception. michael palin is rad. better than those slimy sell outs eric idle and john cleese.

anyhow, his website, palin’s travels, has all of his travel books online for free! you can search them too! this is rad. i bought his first two when i was 12 or so, and would read them in between softball games. yeah. i was an odd kid- a 12 year old jock punk with an ugly haircut and bad dye job who loved reading about an old british comedian running around the world with the acompanying culture clash.

read the stories! they’re free!!! i doubt eric idle would ever be so cool.

not since i lived in c2d in cloyne have i heard such loud house sex. i was just walking to andfrom the bathroom, and i heard one of my housemates and his girlfriend getting it on super loud. can’t they do it in the shower like everybody else?

thank god he’s a few doors down. it’s just kinda muffled.

i hate it when it rains in the morning, because then i think that i won’t do anything all day. then when it’s cleared up, i feel bad for not having done as much. today i made myself go riding in the rain to run errands in the hopes that it would clear up. luckily it did. today’s been good.

i bought a punk comp from weird system records today from something like the german best buy. i’ve been buying their records in america, and was really happy to find them here for cheaper. this cd set is a retrospective of punk in the brd, 1977-1990. man. it’s so nice to listen to good punk. so much of the crap i’ve been seeing lately sucks. wait. i guess that’s true for home too. anyhow, this cd set is great. i’m sure you really care about it.

i also bought a retrospective of die puhdys, one of the most famous bands out of the ddr. they’re playing near here soon, but i doubt i’ll go. i like their older stuff, and their promo photos look cheesy like peter maffay, so i think i’ll skip. i’m too punk rock for airbrushing!

you’ll all be proud to know i passed over all of the schlager comps. no heino today! though i must warn you, i’ll probably get a few before i leave. you know how i love the schlager.

oh, and i think i’m going to be a bum this weekend and bike ride. fuck leaving town!

i’m not posi. this proves it as such. oh well. it was fun to make. that model is ugly, or at least i think so.

oh. today should be better. grrr.
i’m going to see horses later on.